Shot with my Pentax Spotmatic on an uneventful afternoon

I’ve been feeling a bit stuck content-wise, so the consistency of this blog has been truly wacky. I wonder whether this is a common theme among creative professionals, and if that is the case – kudos to them for always delivering! I wanted to write something today, I just didn’t know what I wanted to write about exactly. As a result, I’m just typing away to see where my thoughts will take me. Come to think of it, this little slum in writing may just be a consequence of me wanting to keep more personal things to myself.

My introverted self has been quite satisfied staying home more and engaging in film photography, books, and TV shows. To avoid losing touch with the world, I also try to balance it out with the occasional social activities to connect with friends first, eat good food second, and find photography subjects last. Though I’d say I’m equally happy in both settings, my time spent in solitude has enabled me to reflect on my perspectives and what it means to feel at peace.

A major mindset I always try to set for myself is to be grateful for what was and what is, then to trust the process and be hopeful for what will be. Somebody once told me that the more you appreciate what the universe has given you, the more you will receive in return. In this respect, practicing shooting film has made me appreciative of the subtle beauty in even the littlest things like how the light falls on my subject to cast an interesting shadow, or how it just hangs in the background for some awesome bokeh to form. I learned that gratitude doesn’t need to be for something grand, you can be thankful for just about everything and anything around you.

Being someone who worries herself too often about the future, living and thinking in the “now” has helped me calm many storms. It has made me more compassionate towards others, allowing me to let go of insignificant things so they don’t hang heavy on my energy.

With that, I’d say today I am grateful for self-awareness and inner peace.